Movement

So here we are at 20 weeks.  We can't believe it.  Most days we feel like pinching ourselves because we never thought we'd get pregnant or that IVF would work for us.  And here we are 1/2 way through our pregnancy.  It's crazy.  What's more crazy is last week, I started feeling Monika move.  Oh my gosh, the JOY! It was so fun-I felt it as I was laying down to sleep on Monday night, January 14.  I woke up Todd of course to try and feel my belly--but he was totally out of it and confused because I woke him up.  It started as little flutters, but when I put my hand over were my uterus is, I could feel outside what I thought I was feeling internally.  What a gift.

On Tuesday I was watching online the National Inauguration Prayer Service & Monika was moving like crazy---I like to think that she's going to be musical because she was moving a lot during the children's gospel choir.  Our senior pastor- Adam Hamilton preached the sermon and she also like that too. 

I still feel so undeserving of this pregnancy. I have so many infertile friends who are still struggling and I have no idea why I was so lucky for this sweet embryo to finally stick.  Monika Marie, we like to believe is a fighter--she was the only embryo to stick of 7 total that had been transferred inside of me over 4 IVFs and countless other embryos that died in the lab.

I am with you, my sweet cystas (a very dear friend of mine coined the term because we kept having cysts during our IF treatments so we called ourselves cystas-like sisters), and I will not forget what a gift this is and how lucky I am.  I believe, "Once an infertile, always an infertile," as Tertia  link would say.  She wrote an amazing book, called So Close that really helped me, my friends, and family who read it, to understand how hard IF and how you can help.

 I pray for you all everyday.